Regrets

[these are old.]

1.

I think I may just burst.

I’ll bust open and share all my insides.

You’d be able to see how I care.

You can test it all out, see the malfunctions.

Once I am spilled all over the place what are you going to do?

Once it’s all laid out.

I broke the rules.

I broke them bad.

But so did you.

I’m thinking I may just burst.

Wouldn’t that be nice?

2.

let's go commit a crime, 

reek havoc and cause chaos for everyone to see.

doesn't that sound better?

you'll always have those memories then.

yeah, let's do that!

yeah, why not, sure.

let's go.

too much, too much.

too much.

3.

it's all just a sacrifice.

4.

for a moment, there, i actually believed him. 

i was starting to take these ideas into consideration.

what am i doing?

i was even starting to believe myself. 

he was only twisting my thoughts, he was manipulating my words...right?

or have i really reached that point in time where i have lost all meaning.

my perception is off. my hands are shaking. 

my mind is weak,

just like my knees.

damn,

he sure knows how to speak.

5.

i'm a big girl now,

fighting for her big girl rights.

sorry.